so today started off pretty good... my favourite radio jockey from my fav early morning radio show...called me back for one of the show's segments where i get to wish nyone nything...and hence i was on air wishing my coworker and myself a happy tueday:-D early in the morning!nd happy it seemed to start off with!yay!i m such a huge fan of sarthak's show,i never wanna see him though,coz in my head he is just as awesome in person as he sounds,which is pretty darn awesome!!but they dont make no awesome boys nymore!yes yes i know i know...how liking a radio show is aparently lame and nerdy i m told...BUT DO I LOOK LIKE I CARE!!!
nyway so that was that...followed by gettin my delivery of possibly one of the prettiest sarees in the country...hahaha..i like to keep myself happy!its my first silk saree..i feel all grown up!nywayz i cud go on and on bout this one...but lemmme not...
so here i was thinkin ,'hmm today seems like a stand up day!..how wrong i was
nyway so i am on duty in the emergency department these days.. two days ago ..this old lady was brought in...reallly old...i was the one who saw her first.she didn't look very indian to me.she spoke very well,had very pale skin,couldn't speak much hindi...was accompanied by some ppl who seemed to be her care takers.she had some abdomen complaints.though as old ladies go,this one was not very different,coz elliciting one complaint was coated with a whole lotta..i have pain here and there and nobody takes care of me..and nobody is with me..and these ppl who work for me just dont care.after 15-20 minutes of talkin to her,i finally realised wat the problem was and also explained to the doctor under whose care she was finally to be put,coz she didn't seem very comfrtable nd i didn't wanna have her bother, start the story all over again!nyway, she only featured once again in my thoughts later that day when i was wondering if she was anglo indian nd whatever happened to her immediate family.
so the point of that lill introduction to the old lady was coz ..thats how my day at work ended today.Just when i was about to leave..the caretaker who was with the lady the other day,came running to me to tell me that the lady is back and that i shud take a look coz i saw her last time.She came on a stretcher,she was havin uncontrolable seizures,she seemed pretty badly kept and very very sick:-(..nyway we immediately stabilised her.and then while askin the caretaker what happened,i discovered that she is actually the resident of an old age home.her son/kids live either in the US or Canada.they didnt even leave back any of her medical records,so we dont know if she has any other past illnesses.they left her enuff medicine for three months which she is currently on.ENOUGH SAID!i thought all of us think that ,thats a horrible thing to do to ur parents,but ofcourse i was wrong.its not like i dont see enough misery everyday..i dont know what it was about this lady.its not the possible foreign descent,or her well mannered ,well spoken ways..i dont know what it was about this lady,she looked like she was part of something important in her day!she looked like she wore pretty gowns and she went to nice social gatherings.she looked like she saw things and places i haven't seen yet,nd never know if i'll have the pleasure of seeing.i dont know what it was about this lady,but today she didn't seem like she belonged in the casuality of the city government hospital,with soiled clothes and nobody around to call her own!
she was still unconscious when i left the hospital..i dont even know what i wish for her anymore!
Tuesday, October 27, 2009
Wednesday, September 16, 2009
ATLAS SHRUGGED
there's nothing of any importance in life except how well u do your work.Nothing.The code of Competence is the only system of morality thats on a gold standard.
whatever we are its we who move the world,and its we who will pull it through
It is not advisable to venture unsolicited opinions.You should spare yourself the embarassing discovery of their exact value to your listener
indiscriminate desire and unselective inulgence were possible only to those who regarded sex and themselves as evil
The capacity for unclouded enjoyment, does not belong to irresponsible fools
With his profound respect for money and for its meaning, he despised the squanderer who did not know how to deserve the great gift of inherited wealth
What is morality?
Judgement to distinguish right and wrong, vision to see the truth, courage to act upon it, dedication to that which is good, integrity to stand by the good at any price.But where does one find it?
'he wants to be independent of you!'
'By means of getting from me a salary he cant earn for work he cant do'
We have enough power to carry them along-haven't we?
wasn;t it evil to wish without moving-or to move without aim?
Give me an unobstructed right of way, and i'll show them how to move the earth!
Whatever i am she thought, whatever pride of person I may hold, the pride of my courage, of my work, of my mind, and my freedom-that is what i offer you for the pleasure of your body, that is what i want you to use in your service-and that you want it to serve you is the greatest reward i can have
She could not function to the rule of: Pipe down-keep down-slow down-dont do your best, it is ot wanted!
'Miss Tagart, I can proudly say that in all my life I have never made a profit!'
'..of all the statements a man can make, that is the one I consider most despicable'
"Are you sayin"he asked slowly, "that i rose in your estimation when you found that I wanted you?"
"Of course"
"Most people feel that they rise in their own eyes, if others want them"
"I feel that others live up to me, if they want me"
The worst guilt is to accept an undeserved guilt-and that is what you have been doing all your life
'if you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood blood runing down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater his effort the heavier the world bore down on his shoulders-what would you tell him to do?'
'To shrug.'
The man who despises himself tries to gain self esteem from sexual adventures-which can't be done, because sex is not the cause, but an effect and an expression of a man's sense of his own value
The man who is proudly certain of his own value, will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer-because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement, not the possession of a brainless slut.
Only the man who extols the purity of a love devoid of desire, is capable of the depravity of a desire devoid of love.
'I believed that love is some static gift which, once granted, need no longer be deserved..'
When one acts on pity against injustice, it is the good whom one punishes for the sake of the evil; when one saves the guilty from suffering, it is the innocent whom one forces to suffer'
it's a sin to sit down and let your life go, without making a try for it
'To me-the foulest man on earth, more contemptible than a criminal, is the employer who rejects men for being too good.'
That special pleasure she had felt in watching him eat the food she had prepared..the pleasure of knowing ..one form of his body's satisfaction had come from her.. There is reason she thought, why a woman would cook for a man.. oh,not as a duty, not as a chronic career... the castrated performance of a sickening drudgery was held to be a woman's proper virtue.. the work of dealing with grease, steam and slimy peelings..was held to be a spiritual matter, an act of compliance with her moral duty-while the meeting of two bodies in a bedroom was held to be a physical indulgence, an act of surrender to an animal instinct, with no glory, meaning or pride of spirit to be claimed by the animals involved
'i mean your understanding..not the fact that you admire my work, but that you admire it for the things I wished to be admired.'
if men understand that reality is an absolute not to be faked, that lies do not work, that the unearned cannot be had, that the undeserved cannot be given, that the destruction of a value which is, will not bring value to that which isn't
No one's happiness but my own is in my power to achieve or to destroy.
People think that a liar gains a victory over his victim.What I've learned is that a lie is an act of self abdiction, because one surrenders one's reality to the person to whom one is lies, making that person one's master... The man who lies to the world, is the world's slave from then on.
To place nothin- Nothing;above the verdict of my own mind.
The knowledge that my life is the highest of values, too high to give up without a fight.
You have sacrificed independence to unity.You have sacrificed reason to faith.You have sacrificed self esteem to self denial.You have sacrificed happiness to duty.
Reason does not work automatically; thinking is not a mechanical process, the connections of logic are not made by instinct.
By the grace of reality and the nature of life, man- every man- is an end in himself, he exists for his own sake, and the achievement of his own happines is his highest moral purpose.
Self esteem, as his inviolate certainty that his mind is competent to think and his person is worthy of happiness
that all work is creative work if done by a thinking mind, and no work is creative if done by a blank who repeats is uncritical stupor a routine he has learned from others
Love is the expression of one's values, the greatest reward you can earn for the moral qualities you have achieved in your character and person, the emotional price paid by one man for the joy he recieves from the virtues of another.
Power-lust is a weed tht grows only in the vacant lots of an abandoned mind.
The desire not to be anythin, is the desire not to be.
i finally finished my all time favourite book.i just had to share my thoughts in the form of excerpts from the book
whatever we are its we who move the world,and its we who will pull it through
It is not advisable to venture unsolicited opinions.You should spare yourself the embarassing discovery of their exact value to your listener
indiscriminate desire and unselective inulgence were possible only to those who regarded sex and themselves as evil
The capacity for unclouded enjoyment, does not belong to irresponsible fools
With his profound respect for money and for its meaning, he despised the squanderer who did not know how to deserve the great gift of inherited wealth
What is morality?
Judgement to distinguish right and wrong, vision to see the truth, courage to act upon it, dedication to that which is good, integrity to stand by the good at any price.But where does one find it?
'he wants to be independent of you!'
'By means of getting from me a salary he cant earn for work he cant do'
We have enough power to carry them along-haven't we?
wasn;t it evil to wish without moving-or to move without aim?
Give me an unobstructed right of way, and i'll show them how to move the earth!
Whatever i am she thought, whatever pride of person I may hold, the pride of my courage, of my work, of my mind, and my freedom-that is what i offer you for the pleasure of your body, that is what i want you to use in your service-and that you want it to serve you is the greatest reward i can have
She could not function to the rule of: Pipe down-keep down-slow down-dont do your best, it is ot wanted!
'Miss Tagart, I can proudly say that in all my life I have never made a profit!'
'..of all the statements a man can make, that is the one I consider most despicable'
"Are you sayin"he asked slowly, "that i rose in your estimation when you found that I wanted you?"
"Of course"
"Most people feel that they rise in their own eyes, if others want them"
"I feel that others live up to me, if they want me"
The worst guilt is to accept an undeserved guilt-and that is what you have been doing all your life
'if you saw Atlas, the giant who holds the world on his shoulders, if you saw that he stood blood runing down his chest, his knees buckling, his arms trembling but still trying to hold the world aloft with the last of his strength, and the greater his effort the heavier the world bore down on his shoulders-what would you tell him to do?'
'To shrug.'
The man who despises himself tries to gain self esteem from sexual adventures-which can't be done, because sex is not the cause, but an effect and an expression of a man's sense of his own value
The man who is proudly certain of his own value, will want the highest type of woman he can find, the woman he admires, the strongest, the hardest to conquer-because only the possession of a heroine will give him the sense of an achievement, not the possession of a brainless slut.
Only the man who extols the purity of a love devoid of desire, is capable of the depravity of a desire devoid of love.
'I believed that love is some static gift which, once granted, need no longer be deserved..'
When one acts on pity against injustice, it is the good whom one punishes for the sake of the evil; when one saves the guilty from suffering, it is the innocent whom one forces to suffer'
it's a sin to sit down and let your life go, without making a try for it
'To me-the foulest man on earth, more contemptible than a criminal, is the employer who rejects men for being too good.'
That special pleasure she had felt in watching him eat the food she had prepared..the pleasure of knowing ..one form of his body's satisfaction had come from her.. There is reason she thought, why a woman would cook for a man.. oh,not as a duty, not as a chronic career... the castrated performance of a sickening drudgery was held to be a woman's proper virtue.. the work of dealing with grease, steam and slimy peelings..was held to be a spiritual matter, an act of compliance with her moral duty-while the meeting of two bodies in a bedroom was held to be a physical indulgence, an act of surrender to an animal instinct, with no glory, meaning or pride of spirit to be claimed by the animals involved
'i mean your understanding..not the fact that you admire my work, but that you admire it for the things I wished to be admired.'
if men understand that reality is an absolute not to be faked, that lies do not work, that the unearned cannot be had, that the undeserved cannot be given, that the destruction of a value which is, will not bring value to that which isn't
No one's happiness but my own is in my power to achieve or to destroy.
People think that a liar gains a victory over his victim.What I've learned is that a lie is an act of self abdiction, because one surrenders one's reality to the person to whom one is lies, making that person one's master... The man who lies to the world, is the world's slave from then on.
To place nothin- Nothing;above the verdict of my own mind.
The knowledge that my life is the highest of values, too high to give up without a fight.
You have sacrificed independence to unity.You have sacrificed reason to faith.You have sacrificed self esteem to self denial.You have sacrificed happiness to duty.
Reason does not work automatically; thinking is not a mechanical process, the connections of logic are not made by instinct.
By the grace of reality and the nature of life, man- every man- is an end in himself, he exists for his own sake, and the achievement of his own happines is his highest moral purpose.
Self esteem, as his inviolate certainty that his mind is competent to think and his person is worthy of happiness
that all work is creative work if done by a thinking mind, and no work is creative if done by a blank who repeats is uncritical stupor a routine he has learned from others
Love is the expression of one's values, the greatest reward you can earn for the moral qualities you have achieved in your character and person, the emotional price paid by one man for the joy he recieves from the virtues of another.
Power-lust is a weed tht grows only in the vacant lots of an abandoned mind.
The desire not to be anythin, is the desire not to be.
i finally finished my all time favourite book.i just had to share my thoughts in the form of excerpts from the book
Tuesday, February 10, 2009
the Pink Chaddi Campaign
i read about it in the paper today...its this thing started by 'The consortium of pub going, loose and forward women' ..they are urging women to send pink chaddis(aka underwear) to pramod muthalik,the chief of that bunch of jobless,brainless,chauvinistic and morally retarded organisation THE SRI RAM SENE which beat up young women just coz they were sitting at a pub.brilliant isn't it?!The images i saw on tv continue to haunt me..i think of those men kicking,shoving...pulling them by their hair everytime i walk the street,i am WOmanning a hospital ward on my own or sitting with male colleagues.infact i was discussing the same incident with the latter a few days ago...and well like all 'i m not convservative i m realistic' men ,they had their point of view.. so basicallly in the present semi modern semi conservative male india of today-'what happened was wrong but women need to be careful,after they know how indian society is!!i want to agree with that,and i nod along..but tell me what are the lines???so women should not go to a pub unless accompanied by a male escort,or better still not go at all!!!oh wait also dont travel in a bus with a male colleague from another religion!!actually you will get grabbed either way in a bus,so dont use public transport!!!!oh yeah and what is the need to wear those short skirts!?!?!WHERE ARE THE F***ing LINES?????
i dont blame our parents,or the older generation,i have just come to accept we belong to different planets...but it doesn't fail to frustrate me,how all the sympathy for 'poor girl victim' is always mixed with atleast one odd commment about 'wat was the need to be doing so and so at so and so place at so and so time.
i cant lie,i love all the girl attention too...nd i m no 'bra burning' feminist...so i dont know which side i belong.i am a product of our society and culture ,then whats with the contradictions???!!!
i dont blame our parents,or the older generation,i have just come to accept we belong to different planets...but it doesn't fail to frustrate me,how all the sympathy for 'poor girl victim' is always mixed with atleast one odd commment about 'wat was the need to be doing so and so at so and so place at so and so time.
i cant lie,i love all the girl attention too...nd i m no 'bra burning' feminist...so i dont know which side i belong.i am a product of our society and culture ,then whats with the contradictions???!!!
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